Leaking Lights

BRÛLE/BRILLE zine on sale now!

2011-05-05T22:40:00.002+02:00

Dear friends!

I am proud to tell you that I just finished the zine I’ve been working on these last months.

BRILLE/BRÛLE has about 40 pages of drawings and poetry, printed in black and white.

All poems are in French.

Each zine comes with an original, unpublished drawing.

Each zine is numbered and signed. Each drawing is signed.

There will only be 100 copies.

You can read one of the poems of BRILLE/BRÛLE and see pictures at:

I will send your copy for free, no matter where you live.

The price for the zine + 1 original drawing is 10 CHF – 7€ – 10$

It’s possible to pay by bank transfer or by Paypal.

Order it now by email at giulia.essyad@gmail.com !

Show your support! It means the world to me.

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Chers amis

Je suis fière de vous annoncer que j’ai fini la revue sur laquelle je travaillais ces derniers mois.

La revue, au format A5, contient environ 40 pages de dessins et poèmes, en noir et blanc.

Tous les poèmes sont en français.

Chaque revue est vendue avec un dessin original et inédit.

Chaque revue est numérotée et signée. Chaque dessin est signé.

BRILLE/BRÛLE est tiré à seulement 100 exemplaires.

Un poème issu de la revue ainsi que des photos sont disponibles à

J’envoie volontiers votre copie gratuitement, dans n’importe quel pays.

Le prix pour la revue + un dessin original est de 10 CHF – 7€ – 10$

Il est possible de payer par virement ou par Paypal.

Vous pouvez commander dès maintenant par email à giulia.essyad@gmail.com !

Evidemment, si vous habitez à Lausanne je peux vous le remettre en main propre.

Tout support est bienvenu! Vraiment.

giulia

Charnel House

c'est une histoire qui tourne comme un renard

et renifle en grattant dans un terreau de pleurs.

c’est un renard qui se moque des années,

des années qui passent en sifflant.

comme sifflent les étoiles

dans un ciel d’août

je regarde les herbes

dans le halo des phares

et je me rappelle, chaque soir

sans voir venir le matin

je marcherai dans le couloir

jusqu’à sonja jusqu’à demain

c’est une histoire qu’on tord comme un torchon

pour quelques gouttes de vérité

et chaque goutte rouge rougit de honte

et pleure sur la joue de l’évier.

des êtres pâles parlent ta langue

de frêles opales dans le regard

- aucun fantôme glacé n’égale

tes précieux membres exsangues.

les mois ont marché, mais

force est de reconnaître

je n’ai connu ta peau

qu’en y léchant la poudre.

Frieze Of Love

2010-04-25T23:29:00.000+02:00

Dear Lights!

I'm proud, and a little sad, to present you the Frieze Of Love. Proud, because i think i've never gone so far with painting. because i've been honest, true to myself. And sad because i'm afraid it's finished, the Frieze is done and the love is gone. I started this in february. it's been a long, hurtful process, along with a one-way, ridiculously impossible relationship.

Anyway, i hope you'll like this. Hit me with questions and comments! It's all i'm asking for.

love, giulia

Spirit Lake

2010-04-24T00:52:00.000+02:00

a short tale of invisible magic

MOTILE - SOUTH 2ND (COCOROSIE COVER)

2010-04-22T18:46:00.005+02:00

Here's a little cover of the song from cocorosie's "noah's ark"

South 2nd by Motile

Download link (Click Here)

Listen with headphones!

i love you

2010-03-19T18:13:00.000+01:00

that's me, i love to put blood everywhere

2010-03-09T20:19:00.001+01:00

http://www.kazan-the-man.com/hosted/funnypics/anime-period-ghosts.gif

http://cache.jezebel.com/assets/resources/2008/02/nasty%20period.jpg

istanbul

2010-02-18T00:08:00.002+01:00

Dear Lights!

As you might know, i'm in my Old Lady Phase. and there's nothing an Old Lady loves more than showing her dearest friends pictures from her trips. Here are mine. Istanbul December 2009.

Color Tear + Daedalus by The Pleiades

2010-02-16T15:58:00.004+01:00

Dear Lights!
we are insanely happy to announce that our dear friends The Pleiades decided to release two demos for free on Leaking Lights! The final versions of these will be on their forthcoming album, No Stranger. Read about it and their projects on their facebook here.

"Color Tear" is a hip hop-inspired, bubbly dance jam speckled with AutoTune and Nintendo samples, and "Daedalus" is an unravelled, mythical cool-down of layered harmonies and echoed organ. We hope you like them both!

Listen and download both songs below

No Stranger: Demo Previews by ThePleiades
if you like it, comment and share!

all the love;

francisco, michael, richard and giulia

The Love

2010-02-12T20:53:00.000+01:00

dear god i hate myself

2010-02-06T18:05:00.004+01:00

We both enjoyed that video very much. we are conscient that it can be misunderstood, and we're not to write here all the reasons for which we love it. we would like to re-post something Jamie Stewart, member of the band Xiu Xiu, posted on his blog.

On Fri, Feb 5, 2010 at 9:52 PM, Claire K
Dear Mr Stewart, I am writing to you from my lavatories.

As I sit here releasing my bowels, I would like you to know my opinion of your video "Dear God I hate Myself".

I find that you should be the one up-chucking your indie-chic whole grain soy based sandwhich due to the fact you have an oddly shaped head. I feel that if you were to take it upon yourself to binge & purge perhaps it would return to a normal size. I find the asian girl to be very cute and seeing her preform such an act of self hate for you makes me question if perhaps you have drugged her. If this is the case then you are even more of a narcissistic self absorbed alt-rock indie groupie whore than I had originally thought. I hope you enjoy all the peanut butter sandwhiches that are coming to you.

Sincerly,

A bulimic seriously offended by your lack of sensitivity

aloha claire
the person in the video is my band mate.
the theme of the video was her idea.
she, herself, has lived through being bulimic.
you are a sexist and racist asshole for assuming that because she is a woman and a "cute" asian
(what the fuck do you mean by that, passive and incapable?) that she could not express pain in her own way, and
that it would have to be my idea. fuck you!!!!!!!!!!!
and what is with your weird anti vegan patter in this email
go fuck your meat in the face
and then~
"seriously offended by your lack of sensitivity" ???????
toward who, you?
toward racist, sexist jerk-off twits?
did you even listen to the song?
it is about how much i hate myself and the struggle with that.
did you even try and find out who this "cute" asian person is?
before you assumed i, WTF???? drugged her?????????
that maybe she could have some agency and her own humanity? that i could somehow
have under my crazy indie rock spell??????? and force her throw up or else i might
make in to my crazy indie rock zombie!?!?!?!??!
you are insane and bored. leave me the fuck alone and please travel a little outside of the fucking sanrio store at the mall.
that said,
i am sorry you took this WAY WAY WAY WAY wrong.
this video is about being unabashed in the expression of hurt,
to be unashamed of being tortured inside.
it is bad enough to feel awful all the time but to feel as if you have to hide your negative feelings as well, is an impossible way to live.
i truly hope you can over come the difficulty you have with your body
and i hope you stop being a racist.
and don't throw a fucking sandwich at me. that is dumb.
some other fuck head got on my case for singing about child abuse. you two should be friends.
LOVE and here for you always,
jamie

MOTILE - FOR DIM HANDS artwork

2010-01-13T21:56:00.000+01:00

Dear Lights

here is the artwork i made for my dearest friend francisco's project called Motile (he already posted it in an earlier post). This album is called For Dim Hands, and it's incredibly beautiful. You can download it here for free, just enter the code, clic on the download button, wait a few seconds and then download the file. We hope you enjoy it!

As Your Mouth Moves In Mine

2010-01-07T22:16:00.000+01:00

Hello dear lights;

i'm quite proud to present you my last ninja series. a ninja series has to be drawn quickly (like a ninja, humph) and this one was entirely made within 24 hours. Its was inspired by Neutral Milk Hotel's In The Aeroplane Over The Sea, which is about Anne Frank's diary. If you don't know it yet, i strongly recommend to listen to it! and i hope it will touch you as it touched me.

If you have any question about one of the pictures, the process or anything, feel free to ask! I don't feel like writing 21432 pages now, but i'll answer every comment. in any language. yes.

Download a file with the original drawings so you can zoom in, print them and masturbate on them. there's a bonus one!

here you can listen to a song from The Aeroplane

and here you can download the full album

Are You My Desert Friend?

2010-01-05T13:11:00.004+01:00

MOTILE - FOR DIM HANDS

2009-12-22T01:07:00.007+01:00

Leaking Lights presents the new collection of songs by Motile (Francisco's musical project). The 12 songs complete For Dim Hands, an album recorded from September 2009 - December 2009 in Lisbon, Portugal.

You can download it for free from here: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=41VITA20

Listen with headphones! And if you're kind enough, your opinion on the comments would be much appreciated!!

Tracklist for For Dim Hands

1. Noli's Erosion

2. Former Crowns

3. Schist Streams

4. Ocean Stretch For Dim Hands

5. It Comes, A Need

6. Wind On a Grey Trail

7. I May Not Be

8. Inflow

9. Spine (Nomadic Poem)

10. Mimesis

11. Before Roots Are Ancient

12. Tide (The Guards)

GODS&MACHINES/ ADULTS/ KIDS/

2009-12-13T15:37:00.001+01:00

GODS & MACHINES

ADULTS

KIDS

TVB

2009-12-07T23:52:00.000+01:00

TROY VON BALTHAZAR makes beautiful music. I saw him last night @NBI, Berlin. There was only one big red spot. And he did magic.

IF MEN COULD MENSTRUATE by Gloria Steinem

2009-12-04T21:26:00.004+01:00

A white minority of the world has spent centuries conning us into thinking that a white skin makes people superior - even though the only thing it really does is make the more subject to ultraviolet rays and to wrinkles. Male human beings have built whole cultures around the idea that penis envy is "natural" to women - though having such an unprotected organ might be said to make men vulnerable, and the power to give birth makes womb envy at least as logical.

In short, the characteristics of the powerful, whatever they may be, are thought to be better than the characteristics of the powerless - and logic has nothing to do with it.

What would happen, for instance, if suddenly, magically, men could menstruate and women could not?

The answer is clear - menstruation would become an enviable, boast-worthy, masculine event:

Men would brag about how long and how much.

Boys would mark the onset of menses, that longed-for proof of manhood, with religious ritual and stag parties.

Congress would fund a National Institute of Dysmenorrhea to help stamp out monthly discomforts.

Sanitary supplies would be federally funded and free. (Of course, some men would still pay for the prestige of commercial brands such as John Wayne Tampons, Muhammad Ali's Rope-a-dope Pads, Joe Namath Jock Shields - "For Those Light Bachelor Days," and Robert "Baretta" Blake Maxi-Pads.)

Military men, right-wing politicians, and religious fundamentalists would cite menstruation ("men-struation") as proof that only men could serve in the Army ("you have to give blood to take blood"), occupy political office ("can women be aggressive without that steadfast cycle governed by the planet Mars?"), be priest and ministers ("how could a woman give her blood for our sins?") or rabbis ("without the monthly loss of impurities, women remain unclean").

Male radicals, left-wing politicians, mystics, however, would insist that women are equal, just different, and that any woman could enter their ranks if she were willing to self-inflict a major wound every month ("you MUST give blood for the revolution"), recognize the preeminence of menstrual issues, or subordinate her selfness to all men in their Cycle of Enlightenment. Street guys would brag ("I'm a three pad man") or answer praise from a buddy ("Man, you lookin' good!") by giving fives and saying, "Yeah, man, I'm on the rag!" TV shows would treat the subject at length. ("Happy Days": Richie and Potsie try to convince Fonzie that he is still "The Fonz," though he has missed two periods in a row.) So would newspapers. (SHARK SCARE THREATENS MENSTRUATING MEN. JUDGE CITES MONTHLY STRESS IN PARDONING RAPIST.) And movies. (Newman and Redford in "Blood Brothers"!)

Men would convince women that intercourse was more pleasurable at "that time of the month." Lesbians would be said to fear blood and therefore life itself - though probably only because they needed a good menstruating man.

Of course, male intellectuals would offer the most moral and logical arguments. How could a woman master any discipline that demanded a sense of time, space, mathematics, or measurement, for instance, without that in-built gift for measuring the cycles of the moon and planets - and thus for measuring anything at all? In the rarefied fields of philosophy and religion, could women compensate for missing the rhythm of the universe? Or for their lack of symbolic death-and-resurrection every month?

Liberal males in every field would try to be kind: the fact that "these people" have no gift for measuring life or connecting to the universe, the liberals would explain, should be punishment enough.

And how would women be trained to react? One can imagine traditional women agreeing to all arguments with a staunch and smiling masochism. ("The ERA would force housewives to wound themselves every month": Phyllis Schlafly. "Your husband's blood is as sacred as that of Jesus - and so sexy, too!": Marabel Morgan.) Reformers and Queen Bees would try to imitate men, and pretend to have a monthly cycle. All feminists would explain endlessly that men, too, needed to be liberated from the false idea of Martian aggressiveness, just as women needed to escape the bonds of menses envy. Radical feminist would add that the oppression of the nonmenstrual was the pattern for all other oppressions ("Vampires were our first freedom fighters!") Cultural feminists would develop a bloodless imagery in art and literature. Socialist feminists would insist that only under capitalism would men be able to monopolize menstrual blood . . . .

In fact, if men could menstruate, the power justifications could probably go on forever.

Taken from: http://www.mum.org/ifmencou.htm

2009-11-22T23:48:00.002+01:00

In my heart a flower dies slow

Beneath the starry sky we lie

Drowning in your watery thighs

Don't speak

I can hear you

sonGs

2009-11-22T21:06:00.013+01:00

PODCAST (download here): sonGs - new working link

Podcast by Michael Carli and Francisco Soares

Pictures by Giulia Essyad

Tracklist:

1. Bat for Lashes - Glass

2. Pixies - Gigantic

3. Animal Collective - Grass

4. Sigur Rós - Gobbledigook

5. Phoenix - Girlfriend

6. Royskopp - The Girl and the Robot

7. M.I.A. - Galang

8. Missy Elliott - Get Ur Freak On

9. Bjork - Generous Palmstroke

10. No Age - Genie

11. Pavement - Gold Soundz

12. Micachu - Golden Phone

13. Yeasayer - Germs

14. Beach House - Gila

15. The Mountain Goats - Get Lonely

16. Antony and the Johnsons - Ghost

17. Meredith Monk - Gotham Lullaby

18. Vashti Bunyan - Glow Worms

19. The National - Gospel

20. The Microphones - The Gleam, pt.2

21. Slint - Good Morning, Captain

22. Antony and the Johnsons - The Great White Ocean

LAST STATEMENT

2009-11-14T21:03:00.009+01:00

In Texas, justice still appears in the form of ignorant punishment.

The executions can be seen as a list in the website of the Texas Department of Criminal Justice.

Name

Age

Race

Date of Execution

Along with this list, the last statement of the "offenders" is online... a statement that is now global, that is now an open letter to the world.

We were both very touched by these statements, and it became the two pieces we present here. The first piece is by Giulia and the second one by Francisco.

You can visit the website here.

RED

2009-11-10T00:13:00.036+01:00

berlin/mauerfall/zwanzig jahre/

kommunistisch/demo/hackescher markt/

ludmilla/schwanger/tatutata/

Leaking Lights

2009-11-07T00:52:00.010+01:00

Leaking Lights

Like the expression of a hounded stream

A separation made from the grey wind

Never a distance so close

Like a lymph vessel

Breathing on an imaginary surface

The surface of a girl

Whose hands melted as light presented itself to light

Or the surface of a boy

lost in the forest of love

or the surface of a poem

Or the surface of a draw

Or the conscience of a leaking light

Music: Former Crowns by Motile

(you can download the song from here)